Hangover

Happy New Years guys!Just got an invitation last night from a good friend of mine to party at his place.Drinks and food were flowing smoothly.All there is for the guest to do is to keep taking in the heat until you are down.I couldn't even remember how many shots of whisky i took but i now it should be a lot.Since i started drinking from 11pm until 5am.First time in my life i took a lot of shots of in a short time.

Don't get me wrong.I'm not trying to show that i'm hell of a great drinker.What i'm trying to say i have not been having fun like this eversince i left my secondary school.At the moment i am suffering from a bloody hangover.Bloody headache since just morning and i'm even not at home while posting this blog.I'm still at my host's house waiting for my bloody headache to subside.

Hope many did have a wonderful time last night because i knew i did.For sure our PDRM had a wonderful bonus for the New Year!

New Job

I've got a job this Monday at Delifrance Jaya Jusco Bukit Tinggi.It's just a job as a kitchen crew.What it's interesting is that i happened to be at the right place and time to get the job.I happened to be at my friends house on Sunday night when they told me about the vacancy in Delifrance.I got to know that the previous kitchen crew quit their job as soon as they receive their pay.I have been looking for a new job lately as the tuition centre that hired me to set up banners couldn't obtain a license from MPK.Thus i was jobless eversince i got back from Siam.

The first day was a real shock for me as it is the first time whereby i happened to cook for the customers.Although i have worked in a restaurant before but i was a service crew.Now i'm the part of the kitchen.Lucky for me i have been observing the chefs at the previous restaurant where i worked.So i had been able to use their skills to practise in the kitchen.I maybe clumsy at the moment but i hope pick up soon.The headache is to remember all the recipe and cooking methods.I can't even remember how many dishes that are stated at the menu.

The interesting part is i only work from a single four hours shift from noon until four in the afternoon.The pay is reasonable.Now i have achieved another dream of mine for being able to work in the kitchen.I just can't be too far away from food it seems!

Blogging

People blog for many reasons.Some have sad stories to tell,some share their ideas,some may spread lies,or even share their experience.Blogging as i have found is a very useful tool to express anything you have up in your head to others.To me that's what blogging is all about.Regardless of anything,everyone should have the chance to express their views.That is the meaning of the freedom of speech but one has to be mindful not abuse it.

If i'm not mistaken this post would be the 37th post to date.So i have my equal share of emotional stories,poems,views and experience that i have shared.It's been really nice to have the chance to express all of these in writing.I always had the intention of writing something that pops up in my mind.I'm grateful to live in modern age where everything could just written on the web.It's great to have finally start writing something of the mind.

Being Me

I have some feedback from others saying that i'm too rude to be.They hated me for it.So some would ask me do i feel frustrated about it.Why would i feel such a way and why should i even care about what they think.A simple policy goes within me you don't go cursing them then it would be a problem.No need to feel frustrated about it.If they feel it so much when i cursed then i'd suggest go and file a police report on me.

True as many have spoken to me.You can't expect others to be the same as you.Especially when it comes to having a mindset like mine.I don't want to expect anything at all but just let it be.I'm thinking about it over and over.Finally i came to a conclusion that there is no point hoping for such an event to happen because it won't.So sit down and relax and enjoy the show.Let these people run around.Let them hit the wall for a change.Let them feel it.I'm not going to do anything.

No point bothering about others accepting you if you can't even accept yourself.Important is you yourself.I like being me.I'm not going to walk same path as you might.I know what and who i am.
Though i may damn myself for another year it's going to be a good show.

It would be fine if i would only curse in front of guys but i've met those girls who eventually curse too alongside.They are not far from us they are right around us.We are fine around but many find us not fine up in our heads.Again i'd say who cares.I maybe talking of some nonsense here to some.In the end everyone has their own judgement.

A story goes,a group of human walked into a forest and saw a bunch of monkeys.They said that the monkeys were an ugly bunch.The monkey said the same of the man to its kind.What is the moral behind the encounter?It's for you to figure out.

Lets Talk About Something

Our national education system has been designed to fail us Malaysians right from the very beginning of the implementation of it's policies upon us.Many of us have to go through many stages of the national examination in our lives notably the UPSR,PMR and SPM.If you are unlucky enough you might go through the toughest of the whole lot which is the STPM.

Not to belittle these exams or the lessons we have learned throughout the eleven years that we have spent in school learning on the ways that many would say to help us build a brighter future.Truth is all that we have gone through are for nothing.What do we actually learn?That is the question that has been filling the minds of some that have found out the true meaning of learning for an eternity.

The syllabus that were taught are interesting but has it not occurred to some that much of what we learn are irrelevant in the future.For instance if a person does not seem to be in the field of biology in the future ,why should he be forced to learn or sit for that subject in the exams when what he would learned soon that it would not be irrelevant in the future if he would be in a profession outside the field of biology.It would be better that he be given a chance to choose a subject that he knows that he has a potential future on.

The teachers have been on the wrong track for long enough.They have been forced to teach or finish up the syllabus before the exams.I would say that teachers have their good intentions placed on the side of the track going down to Singapore.What is the point of scoring all A's in the exams when in fact the students these days have lacked what is to become a human.My generation and the ones to come are slowly being degenerated into robots.Everything is about the A's and only that alone is in their mindset.Only the teachers can show us the light as they are our guide.If they open the wrong door for us then we are doomed for good.They should pause a moment and reflect back to their time when they were younger and figure out whether this is necessary for us.

Exams are good no doubt.To my humble opinion it is the only way to know if you are ready or not.The situation has turn to be that the students are trained for the exam but nothing for the life beyond that.It's ashamed to know that even degree holders can't get a decent job or worse even a job these days.It all boils down back to very beginning when we were back in school.

Co-curricular activities have also been forsaken for good grades.Many of us think of this program as a waste of time and they think of it as a bonus for them to get into universities.It's neither a waste of time or it is bonus mark provider.It's useful in helping many of the young guys like us to learn a new skill or earn a useful experience for future use.It's hard to describe the experience that i meant but to me it had opened the eyes of a few of us.As i would put it every experience is a lesson.It's somewhere where knowledge could only harvested where the books can't help.

If this trend and mindset are going to persist.Malaysian's are not going to venture far.In fact we will be running in circles.Thus we will only be damned by our own doing.We should stand up for what we do know that is not right instead of immersing ourselves in our wrongdoings.We must be brave enough to resist this dark doing and brace ourselves for a new change which can benefit Malaysia.The words"change we believe in" which are frequently mentioned by Mr Obama in his speeches shows that if we want a change we have to believe.If we believe then we will change.

Apa Ko Hendakkan Dariku

Telah ku melangkah diriku ke hadapan,
Mengapa mu hendakkan menahanku
daripada meninggalkan silamku,
Adakah ku telah berdosa amat terhadapmu?
Sudah ku melepaskan semuanya,
Tidak juga mu fahami.

Perkara yang diperihalkan dikatakan
amat muda,
Entahlah apa perkara yang dapat
dijadikan berharga,
Apa ko hendakkan dariku,
Telah cukup mu menghisap darah,
Hantu sepertimu sudah cukup di sekitarku.

Cukuplah mu!
Jangan sampai apiku mula membara,
Jangan hinggakan diriku yang lampau
timbul dari kubur,
Telah cukupku saksikan.

Hendakkan ku buat mu faham,
Tapi untuk apa,
Telah ku sampai di tempat perjumpaan,
Tapi di mana mu?
Tak juga ku lihat-lihatkan,
Alangkah baiknya jika bukan begitu.

Pedih di hati bila diludah di muka oleh
yang disangkakan sahabat,
Tidak sampai hatiku melihatnya,
Salah yang dilakukanmu tidak dirasa,
Bermaharajalela mu di sini sana,
Mu tidak akan bermain lama di sini.

Balasan siap tertulis oleh takdir,
Sehingga itu akan ku perlahan-lahan
menahan kerenahmu,
Bila mu ditimpa suratan takdir
janganlah salahkanku,
Mu yang bawakan ke atas dirimu,
Kalau boleh sehingga masa itu
senyaplah.

Ps:Mu dan aku cuma berdiri pada tanah yang sama.Janganlah mu sangkakan mu itu di kayangan.Akan mu jatuh ke tempat asalmu suatu hari nanti.

Tengah Bercuti Ba

Sudahlah sampai cutiku akhirnya.Nasibku amat baik sekali.Sudah empat tahun ku tak pulang ke kampung halaman.Akhirnya ku sudah berpeluang untuk pulang ke Siam untuk berehat.Sesudah sampainya  cuti ini,telah ku sedari betapa penatnya ku.Penatnya teramat sekali sehingga ku rasai betapa rindunya ku terhadap masa lampau.Entah ba apa yang ku akan buatkan semasa ku sampai di sana nanti.

Lima hari di sana akan ku gunakan sehabis-habisnya.Untuk apa ku penatkan diriku sehingga begini.Cuma ku yang tahu.Cuti sekolah terkini ini patut digunakan untuk berehat dengan secukupnya.Maklum ba lepas masuk tahun baru,cuti tidak akan seperti cuti kerana kita akan menghidapi penyakit.Penyakit apa itu orang akan bilang samaku.Ku akan menjawab penyakit peperiksaan la sayang!Semua budak-budak 6 Atas akan menghidapinya.Sepanjang itu,tidur dan makan pun tidak akan cukup masanya.

Sepanjang cuti ini telah ku rancangkan beberapa perkara untuk kecapi.Cuma kini perlu ku untuk melaksanakannya.Namun yang paling penting ialah untuk rehat secukupnya.Seperti yang ku katakan tadi,lepas ini semua akan menghidapi penyakit.Jadi relaks kita tengah bercuti ba!

To Say What I Needed To Say

It's a final relieve that i could get everything out that i have kept within me.It was a frustrating business to be a monitor and a student at the same time.I'm a man with many flaws and never expected to be perfect all the time.So i need them to show me my mistakes like a mirror.Same it goes to them.Therefore i don't apprreciate it if someone goes around my back and say things about me.If there is any problem one would just need to come forth and confront me.A person who could give a constructive criticism is a winner then the person who could not accept it.Thus one must confront the situation beforehand.To be accused as a molester in front of a teacher really pisses me off.I'm a man and i do like ladies but i do know how to respect a ladies body.

As so most of us will be together for another year.We have to learn to cooperate and accept one another.Don't judge a person for what he is on the outside but instead learn to judge from the inside of someone.I admit that i'm a Barbarian but i'm willing to accept anyone into my circle of friends.As for the others who think that they someone of higher status that could not accept me.I'm very fine with it.I look forward to find a more meaningful friendship.At the same time don't ever judge others by their skin colour.We are staying together in Malaysia we should to forge that spirit of Bangsa Malaysia to live as one under the same roof.

As a class monitor,i find it very frustrating to see that i'm the one running when the rest are still sitting down looking at me with a blank stare.I can't just bare the sight to know i have swam to the other side of the river only to turn behind to see that the other twenty three are still over the other side of the river and still have not cross it.I don't mind if they have crossed it even if i have to stay behind to make sure that they have crossed the river safely.My concept has always been one rise all rise,one fall all fall.That was how i was trained and brought up to be.Rank is not a privilage but a burden that you must bare until the very end.

I have walked to where i have to meet them.The questions remains is wheter they have walked to where am i standing now.I don't want any sorry or to be sorry at.I just want to forgive and forget.Let the past be bygone.I want some peace within me.It's time for me to let go and let my time past.At this stage of my life,i have looked behind and realised that i have walked a long road and the journey ahead of me is still long and hard.

As much i have sinned towards others,they too have sinned that much towards me.If i have done any mistakes towards any of you.Please accept my humble apologies and please guide me to the right track.I have finally have said what i needed to say after these six months. 

Dalam Perjalanan

Mungkinkah aku telah menemui jawapannya,

Telah ku genggamkan sehingga menjadi abu,

Cuma berharapan aku telah melaksanakannya,

Kini aku ingin mencari ketenangan dalam diriku,

Telah sampai masanya ku berundur.

Pangkat itu bukannya satu anugerah,

Tapi ianya satu beban yang harus dipikul

sehingga ke hujung jalan,

Aku sanggup memikulnya,

Aku di sini menahan setiap saatnya,

Sehingga semua telah sampai dengan selamat,

Biarpun badanku binasa.

Sekelilingku tiada sesiapa pun,

Berjalan seorang diri di dalam gelap,

Kalaulah ini hanyalah satu mimpi,

Kenyataan memang nyata,

Sakit itu terasa amat dalam diriku.

Namun aku cuma seorang manusia,

Tanpa keperitan maka tiada makna

dalam diriku,

Menoleh ke belakang telah ku sedari,

Telah jauh ku berjalan,

Kini aku di sini,

Ku hendak menjelajah lagi,

Masih banyak perlu ku pelajari
dalam perjalanan.

Orders

Orders are orders you must execute them.The differences are the officers that are executing the orders.

Lt.Azwar bin Abdul Talib(TLDM)

Kem Plkn Paya Indah,Kuala Langat,Selangor.

Warning

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I have created this blog in the intention of sharing my ideas and lessons that i have learned in my life with others.Therefore in return i would appreciate it if the readers could share constructive ideas and criticism with me.Not in the intention for you guys to pour nonsense all over it.

I welcome everyone into my blog.No one would be rejected and please change your mindset.Use blogs for good use.If you wish to spam,please go make your own and spam yours.Please heed my request.

Eversince That Day

Minutes and seconds passed by,
Finally i got the courage to say it to you,
Your smile gave me hope,
But the reply was a stab to my heart,
I choose to wait with hope,
That one day you will accept me in you,
As how i hold you dear in me.

For now i must retreat,
For i do not wish to stir wrong intentions,
Still thinking of you in my mind,
Oh I can't smile without you,
I can't live without you,
I find it hard to do anything.

I just can't stand the silence,
I just can't stand being insane,
When you don't say a thing to me,
It's been like this ever since that day,
When you said I'm sorry,
Oh I'll wait for you,
I will.

Note:This was written on hope that one day if she ever passes by would read it.I just don't know what else to do.

The Coming End Of Our Term

I've got another two weeks until the end of this semester.Now i'm looking for a job to support myself throughout the holidays.Just a while ago before posting this blog Cikgu Aziz introduced me to Mr Liew who is the latest tuition competitor in town.The meeting went on smoothly and it seems he would offer me a job hanging banners and distributing pamphlets around Klang.I don't really care what kind of job i'm going to get provided i get paid and it's worth my time.

I just can't be expecting to be living on my monthly allowances every month.At least i should stock up some money for the coming rainy days.Life is really tough down here.Food,fuel and fag prices is at all time high.It's really making a hole in my pocket.Sometimes i'm just very jealous of my friends whom their parents are very supportive in every matter.Money is always not a problem for them but for me it always is.

Thus the coming holiday is not going to be a holiday for me.Got three biology projects coming up,tuitions are on throughout the duration of the holidays,got to study a little since i screwed my exams up,i also intend on getting my probationary license and if i got a got a job it's going to be damn busy for me.The point is it is going to be a real hectic holiday but at least it's better than going to school.I love my life outside school!

To all life is not easy now so brace yourself for the worst.Cheers!

What A Week

I would say that in my life last week was the most lousiest week ever to hit me in the face.My world really came crashing down.A lot of things got me from all directions until i just feel like going nuts.Nobody noticed anything.I've just been keeping everything inside and i didn't tell anything out other than my closet companions.I just had no idea what to say but to swallow everything in myself.Got to digest it on my own.

It happened to me that i have been washed away by the wave.But i said back to the ocean that i will wait for you.Patiently i will do.

Thank god anyway i went to Kuala Lumpur yesterday to take a break from everything.I met up with Abdullah and Shaun.They are both my good friends.So we idiots had fun all day and i got back from Kuala Lumpur almost close to midnight.At least it had helped eleviate my mood.I had been extremely moody lately.Even my mom had to ask me to go out and have a break.

Today pula,i gate crashed into five houses.I really ate a lot and i am damn full.Best part was that the fun day i had breed a hell of a headache.So at the moment i am nursing it.The things i got into lately really makes me want to ram my head on the wall.Goodness Christ!!This is the truth:Crap happens so live with it!

Oh yes to all my Hindu friends.Happy Deepavali to all you guys and your family.Have a nice day everyone.

What I Have Seen

I have seen many type of people as i grew older.It seems that whenever you see something new.Your mind seem to open up a little to the world.Like a child who has never seen what canned beans are but after he had opened it he finally knows what he is looking for.I mixed with many types of people.I have been around mat rempits,mat rockers,soldiers,nerds,nut cases like me,religious people and the list keeps going on and on year after year.

At least through this sort of exposure,it tells you what the world is all about out there.The world is not concentrated in our books.Instead it's out there waiting for us to learn it.First of all we have to be brave enough to swim into it.For those who have the habit of rejecting others and thinking that they are great,they are going to have a major heart attack when they leave school.

The world is full struggle,in the course our journey we have to mix to survive.I do not mean that you have to be a mat rempit to mix.Just get to know them at least you get to know a thing or two.If you could be a better friend to them you will pull them out that lousy lifestyle of theirs.So what if that person smokes,drinks or swears?Does it make him a bad person?Important is that he or she has some sense of loyalty and honour in him.It happened to me when my non smoking,non drinking and non swearing friend backstabs me while my smoking,drinking and happy to swear friend is the only one who bail me out during my darkest hours.

Don't judge them by what you see but instead dig deep down into them and know them for what they are.If i have not done so to you please forgive me.

Kebenganganku

Saban hariku melaluinya,
Terasa melalui ombak yang kuat
di tengah lautan,
Hendak ku langkahkan diriku ke dalam
kegelapan,
Tertanyaku pada diriku,
Apa dah terjadi?
Kekosongan di angkasa cumaku
nampakkan.

Kebenganganku seperti kemarahan
Tuan Perapi,
Terkawal hanya dengan kesabaran,
Kesabaranku terbatas ukurannya,
Entah sampai bilaku boleh mengawalnya,
Hanya menunggu saat kapal ini berlabuh
di Melaka.

Mungkinkah jawapan kepadanya dapat
dicari di Melaka,
Jika tiada ku merantau mencari akan
jawapannya,
Walaupun terpaksa berhujan batu
di negeri urang,
Berharapan pada suatu hari kebenganganku
dapat dijadikan abu,
Lalu dilupakan seperti ditiupkan ke langit,
Oleh itu ku mencari jawapan.

Final Semester

It has been two days since the exam started.It's not easy for me as i have only started to study two days before the exam started.I have really gotten myself into deep trouble.I dare not think of my results that i'll obtained.

It's also the final semester now.Life in school is coming to an end for this year.PMR is also on the timetable for the week.Goodness,it has been three years since my Form 3 days.By the end of October it would be a year since i left La Salle.Time really flies!So a simple advice to all of you,spend it well and don't waste it.Take every risk in life don't just swim at the shallow side of the sea instead go deeper even it means losing your breath.The experience is worth a lifetime.

Oh yes for your info i still didn't say anything to her yet.Yes the secret is killing me.I can't think of anything much for the moment as the exam is still on.One day I'll try to say it.

To those who are sitting for their final semester exams.Good luck and do your best.

The Coming Battle

So it begins again.As every soldier begins sharpening their blades for the coming battle.Hordes of enemy will come and we will stand our ground to the end.Or take our life in shame as demanded by the code.Supplies are heavily stocked while rations were carefully given out to everyone.Still morale does not look good as weariness sets in our minds.

The coming battle will take it's toll.Some will be the victor some will be the loser.No one knows.Only fate remains in God's hand as so He can decide.As i await the coming of it.The tune of the Amazing Grace could be heard throughout the encampment from the bagpipes of our fellow White Scars.How sweet and amazing is God's grace.

Tomorrow at dawn,my company and the other five companies will march into the battlefield.The first shot will be from my side.The coming battle has arrived so have we the Raven Guards.

Purge,Cleanse and Kill!

6-10-2008

As it began it was only a seedling,
Growth was a dilemma,
Lost in its surrounding,
Uncertain of the future was I,
It's stormy ahead.

Now a blossomed Sakura in spring,
Awaiting the coming of autumn,
If it has arrived,
Would the weather bare uncertainty?

Standing by the cliff was I where the Sakura
stands blossomed,
Awaiting the arrival of the autumn days,
Thus i await it as the Sakura petals falls
gently to Mother Earth.

This Week

First three days of this week i couldn't sleep.A lot of things were running through my mind and i just couldn't get it out.Restless was i and many people noticed it including Mrs Koh.The problem was i just couldn't say it out.I just can't admit it.Shy,nuts, or sheer stupidness, maybe fear of fearing rejected?I don't know.Choose one.

That feeling of guilt was killing me for that three days.I got nuts enough that i started to dedicate a poem to someone.I didn't show it yet!All those in school especially those close to me did see the difference.As for now i'm struggling with my life to maintain some sanity.

I've got my club work,school work,exams,class work and my crush to juggle about.I've have to admit it that this week i've almost gone nuts.Almost!

The feeling of guilt is still lingering inside me.Trap in a whirpool would be the word.Resolution would not be here for now so i will have to look for it.Another question is where and how?

Change

Just got home from my friend's home.The dude is on a one month sem-break from MSU.So he called me up to his place to have a Raya feast.Quite full am i as i have gun down almost 4 plates of nasi briyani.Looking at most of my friends that i have met up throughout the Raya celebrations it seems many have change and moved on with their lives.When i meant change, it's really different than the time when we were studying together in La Salle or in tuition.

Time really changes a man.This year itself i have gone through many events that many have said that now i act and react differently unlike my secondary years.So that was what they say.I indeed believe time changes a person.To me,feel that i have a different character now than compared to the old days.Although some part of myself may not exactly change a lot but the change is noticeble in me.

So now i'm returning to school tommorow.Routine begins again.I'm back at hell and in heaven.I'm back again seeing someone.Reactions for the next following days could not be predicted accordingly as expected for the moment.But i'll patiently await for the day to arrive.As for now,i'm back where i started.

As The Knight Awaits

As the knight awaits news the rain begin to shower from the sky and lands upon the roof of the chapel.So was the feeling i had within which sounded just like the sound of rain droplets landing on the roof.Pieces of me could be scattered into different continents like a shatered glass on the floor.Could i not think of anything other than this?

Signals through the mountains from Eriador to Annor show no promising signs.Then came a news through it that the heart may have well been taken away by another with higher grace.Like shatered glass was the feeling.Fate has deemed it so or was it fated to be challenged.Of either both i will never know.

I will ride to challenge into the west to reclaim the heart.As one i go but not return as a broken shield.The journey is winding and dark.Of i depart now i must.As the knight awaits the fateful reply from the heart.

Today

Today.Very boring day like any other holiday.Not much things to do but i'm tired to the max.Just yesterday i was gate crashing here and there.Well maybe that's why i'm tired or chating until morning.God knows!My old friends from La Salle called me out today for futsal but i had to cancel the plan last minute cause i couldn't even wake up.

Whole night i was thinking of something and i could not get the "Smile" of my mind.This could be another reason i couldn't sleep.Many had noticed something and i have to admit they are very observant.Oh ya kawan-kawan reminder sikit,hang nak tolong boleh tapi jangan bercerita banyak tau!I'm not liking if it happens.As for her she doesn't seem to know anything.All the while i'm kind worried to get rejected.Would it happen?

Anyway today i study halfway and i couldn't concentrated anymore so it seems bloging was the solution for the moment.Anu what's going to happen soon?

Raya Kedua

Kenyang betul perut aku ni.Dua rumah sudah aku gate crashing ni.Pertama rumah Si Ash kemudian Si Abdul pula.Nampak je lauk,ku terus makan tak henti-henti.Kang terasa nak meletup ba perutku.Sekurang-kurangnya hari ni ku dapat keluar lihat muka-muka member yang dah lama tak jumpa.Lepas ni entah bila boleh lagi berjumpa dengan mereka?

Lepas gate crashing kat rumah Si Ash tu ku terus ke rumah Si Abdul.Pijak je terus kat rumah dia terus aku dijemput untuk makan.Ha,lepas tu pula ayah Si Abdul pun mula berbual lama dengan aku.Ai memang lama kita orang berbual.Ayahnya tak henti-henti bagiku nasihat.Memang ba orang yang berpengalaman kan.Bagi kebanyakan orang,jika berbual dengan ayahnya mungkin terasa bosan.Tapi bagiku pula terasa macam aku diberi nasihat yang bagus.Anu,bapaku pun tak pernah bagiku nasihat.Namun,nasihatnya memang bagus bagiku ba yang sedang merana kat Form 6.

Konklusinya,Raya Kedua ini memang tak rugi.Sekurang-kurangnya dapat jumpa member,makan dan diberi nasihat.Macam mana pula dengan Raya Kedua korang?

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri

Telah berlalunya sudah sebulan,kini dah tiba pula bulan Syawal.Ai cepat sungguh masa berlalu ni!Esok ku akan keluar beraya dengan Si Ash kat rumahnya.Yang ikutku samaku pula Si Boey dengan Si Abdul.Tak boleh nak tunggu-tunggu la.Dah tak sabarla ku nak gate crash rumah Si Ash.Siapla dia esok!

Tadi baru aku pergi berjumpa dengan member-member kat tempat kerja lamaku tu.Tiba-tiba dia orang call samaku pergi Pastamania untuk makan.Tak sangka pula lepas ku resign masih boleh lagi contact dengan dia orang lagi.Akanku selalu kenang-kenangkan Makan Raya ni bersama dia orang.Memang bagusla orang-orangnya semua!Anu,hampir semua geng lama dah resign tinggal aja Si Josseim dengan Bang Li.Astaga,Si Ammar pula baru kena pecat.Adusla hai!

Entah ba tempat kerja lama aku tu!Management pula macam mangkuk,undercut semua orang.Patutla aku pun resign.Tapi teamwork kat sana tu memang mantap.Budak kitchen sama budak service boleh selalu backup sesama sendiri.Tak pernah kita orang terkangkang bila buat kerja.Susah nak jumpa keadaan sebegini kat tempat lain kan?

Walaubagaimanapun,ini time kita bercuti dan relak.Lebih baik lupakan hal-hal yang dah lalu ba.Bagi semua umat Islam di Malaysia ku mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya al-Mubarak,Maaf Zahir dan Batin.Bagi yang bukan Islam pula,terutamanya aku Selamat Gate Crash Member-member Muslim ko!Korang jangan buat apa-apa kecuali Beraya tau.Faham!

MMM

MMmmm i just deleted something.Just to keep hearts unhurt.Anyway for everybody's info i'm my class's president.Believe it.Most of my friends won't.Seriously it is one of the lamest job on earth you will get in your life time.The following are a few dumb examples that a president must do:

1-Ucap Selamat to your teachers(Come on man we are grown up's you still think we are kids!!!)
2-Collect books and send to the staff room(They think i'm a kuli)
3-Layan kerenah setiap orang since you stand between the teachers and your members
4-Jaga duster and marker
5-Buat class sales

The list goes on and on.The crap part is, i hate everypart of my job function.The teachers think that you are some kuli.You have to do everyone's work.When someone asks who is responsible.First person to kena is me.

But since i'm the class president,i have to fulfill my duties no matter how i hate it.Everyone have given you the trust thus you must work to the end.Always see that all your duties are complete and at the tip top conditions.One thing i learned from being a company leader and special unit chief is learned to bare with your crap and swallow it down.

It happened before during my secondary school days,when my class split into many factions.This is a cancer that could split my class into pieces.That kind berpuak-puak mentality is very dangerous.It's a total cancer.Well i will never let it happen now.If it were to happen then the person has to cross my dead body first.

Another thing as a class president,i'm very lazy to layan anybody's kerenah.I like to give everyone ample freedom provided they don't get into trouble.If you want to go somewhere just go,if you want to do it then do it.That's simple right!Temper of mine very short fuse so far, to most this is a warning. Don't ask me stupid questions unless you are thinking of getting screwed teruk-teruk.Sometimes others see me as a jerk.What i care!I've got a heart of stone susah nak chill.

If anyone us gets into trouble.All must lend a hand.I'm ready to take the bullet but for the valid reasons.If someone is there to punk with us i'm ready for him.

As for now.I'm here to do my job well and go back home.Got no time to entertain anyone.

Support

I believe the best in all my friends.Everyone in the class or i would say my buddies in the class although they may look at me like some sohai fellow who sesat from some hole in Mars.They have something special in them,they are capable of doing something.It takes time to show it.Everyone tend to do mistakes.That's part of nature.I hope they see it and understand the mistakes that they have done.Hasharan has the capability to speak,while Jivi has the brains,Alexis has her cute face and the rest also has something big to contribute.The list goes on and on.I salute all of them.

I just browsed through Alexis's blog.She mentioned something about the Maths teacher of mine and i have to admit he is a real pain in the ass.I support her and i don't believe she was talking behind anyone's back.She was telling nothing but the truth.Alexis i support you!!!!Don't be sad be happy.Happy holidays everyone!!Smile.

Waranty

All events that occur are true and the characters are real.Some people's names or places's names may have their name replaced with other names to protect their indendity.No stories had been made up.I really had been through all these events.

Last Night Or Last Morning

Gone out with my friends yesterday to buka puasa.After chatting for quite a while,we decided to go home.So i dropped Abdul back at home,while on the way home me and Shahril decided we should go lepak with his mat rempit gang.Mat Rempit you may think that they are bunch of people with problem but they are infact quite nice guys.They accepted me into the group.In the group i am known as Ah Pek Ori to all while Shahril everyone called him Keling.

Last night,while all of us were smoking,one of the dude took a ciggarete to puff.Little that he knew that the ciggarete was stuffed with a fire cracker.So the idiot lighted that ciggarete up and it blew at his face.You guys should have seen that dude's reaction.

After midnight,we decided to go to Danau in Gombak.They wanted to buy some things for Hari Raya.The place that we were heading was something like Klang's Bundle.Only this Bundle is very big and it opens everyday.By the time we finished we decided to head for KL for a spin.After we pusing-pusing,we headed to Shah Alam to makan.God was i tired,looking at my watch i noticed it was already 4am.

On the way back,the idiots decided to race at the Federal Highway.One Wira,one Saga and an Innova racing down the Federal Highway.Thank god there was no roadblock or else all of us will be in the Balai today.For your information,some of the mangkuk's punya lesen sudah mati.

Got back home at five plus but i wasn't even sure that was the time i reached since i was so damn tired.Just woke up a while ago and i'm going to see someone's sour face.You know what i mean.

Unfinish

This week me and my group got thrown out of the class for not finishing our assignment.Funny part was that we could still laugh when we were thrown out.My teacher for sure banyak senang sakit hati for a small matter like this.She said that by not doing her work it was like not appreciating her work.Of course we do and it is just our first mistake.Had she realised it?For us who gives a dime about her.Life goes on as usual.One thing for sure teachers will always treat us like kids and they we never look at us as equals.They would always expect respect to given not earned.Well too bad for them,they have got to earned mine.

Aduhnya Sakit

Sakitnya ada dua.Satunya sakit hati.Demam rindu seseoranglah agaknya penyakit yangku dapat.Hari-hari ku tengok muka dia.Terasa nak confess perasaanku namun ku tak tahu macam mana lepaskan perasaanku.Sudah beberapa kali ku flirt dengan dia tapi dia masih tak perasaan yang si bengong ni iaitu aku ada ITU FEELING samanya.Ai AI apa sudah jadi!!!!!!!Tolong ba bagiku kekuatan untuk meluahkan perasaanku.

Sekarang sakit kedua pula,abang longku tu memang buat ku nak sepak kepala otak hang dia.Baru-baru ni,ku baru je repair komputerku ba.Anu,dia pun kata samaku pergi ke kliniknya untuk dapatkan satu broadband modem darinya.Lepas ku dah siap pasang,ku pun enjoyla surfing internet.Astaga siapa tahu pula,hari ni dia kata samaku untuk pulangkan modemnya.Ingatkan dia nak bagi?Lebih-lebihla ku bikin blog ni,download ni download tu.Sekarang pula nak bagi dia balik!!


Aduh sakitnya aku!Tolong Doktor bagi Ubat Tahan Sakit!

Apa Mau Buat

Thought of studying today but study half way always get distracted.The best part was studying my pengajian am.Due to the tons ministries Malaysia has,I've got kind fed up reading all of it.So I've decided that during the test i'd just go use my common sense if I have any during that time.Gosh I better go get myself some revision books or else.Al Fatiha six feet under!!!Finals is coming soon.Just starting to warm my engine up.Blasting full capacity by this week.How are most us Form Sixes doing out there?Well we can keep on guessing!God and them only know.

What I've Been Through to Become This.

I was born somewhere or a place that i which i was not born.I hope it didn't be that way but my mom sacrificed a lot to take me out of that place.While growing up,I didn't receive any love from my dad.Thus now I've no feeling towards him.Many kids would feel rejcted but I felt that as a blessing.Since my mom was so busy handling our household problems and my dad especially.I had to grow up on own and learn to fend for myself.You could say that who I am today resulted from my upbringing.

Sometimes I've been through so many up and downs in my life until i feel like taking my life or simply run away from reality.I told myself still that if i do so than I'm good for nothing.I want to show that old man and my family members that i could swallow all my problems without their help.Thus it has always been my dream to join the navy.I hope to show them that i'm at least i can make something out of myself.Although I maybe a sohai bastard but to those who really no me they know what I'm going to do.Do you think that I'd look smart in Navy uniform?