The Coming End Of Our Term

I've got another two weeks until the end of this semester.Now i'm looking for a job to support myself throughout the holidays.Just a while ago before posting this blog Cikgu Aziz introduced me to Mr Liew who is the latest tuition competitor in town.The meeting went on smoothly and it seems he would offer me a job hanging banners and distributing pamphlets around Klang.I don't really care what kind of job i'm going to get provided i get paid and it's worth my time.

I just can't be expecting to be living on my monthly allowances every month.At least i should stock up some money for the coming rainy days.Life is really tough down here.Food,fuel and fag prices is at all time high.It's really making a hole in my pocket.Sometimes i'm just very jealous of my friends whom their parents are very supportive in every matter.Money is always not a problem for them but for me it always is.

Thus the coming holiday is not going to be a holiday for me.Got three biology projects coming up,tuitions are on throughout the duration of the holidays,got to study a little since i screwed my exams up,i also intend on getting my probationary license and if i got a got a job it's going to be damn busy for me.The point is it is going to be a real hectic holiday but at least it's better than going to school.I love my life outside school!

To all life is not easy now so brace yourself for the worst.Cheers!

What A Week

I would say that in my life last week was the most lousiest week ever to hit me in the face.My world really came crashing down.A lot of things got me from all directions until i just feel like going nuts.Nobody noticed anything.I've just been keeping everything inside and i didn't tell anything out other than my closet companions.I just had no idea what to say but to swallow everything in myself.Got to digest it on my own.

It happened to me that i have been washed away by the wave.But i said back to the ocean that i will wait for you.Patiently i will do.

Thank god anyway i went to Kuala Lumpur yesterday to take a break from everything.I met up with Abdullah and Shaun.They are both my good friends.So we idiots had fun all day and i got back from Kuala Lumpur almost close to midnight.At least it had helped eleviate my mood.I had been extremely moody lately.Even my mom had to ask me to go out and have a break.

Today pula,i gate crashed into five houses.I really ate a lot and i am damn full.Best part was that the fun day i had breed a hell of a headache.So at the moment i am nursing it.The things i got into lately really makes me want to ram my head on the wall.Goodness Christ!!This is the truth:Crap happens so live with it!

Oh yes to all my Hindu friends.Happy Deepavali to all you guys and your family.Have a nice day everyone.

What I Have Seen

I have seen many type of people as i grew older.It seems that whenever you see something new.Your mind seem to open up a little to the world.Like a child who has never seen what canned beans are but after he had opened it he finally knows what he is looking for.I mixed with many types of people.I have been around mat rempits,mat rockers,soldiers,nerds,nut cases like me,religious people and the list keeps going on and on year after year.

At least through this sort of exposure,it tells you what the world is all about out there.The world is not concentrated in our books.Instead it's out there waiting for us to learn it.First of all we have to be brave enough to swim into it.For those who have the habit of rejecting others and thinking that they are great,they are going to have a major heart attack when they leave school.

The world is full struggle,in the course our journey we have to mix to survive.I do not mean that you have to be a mat rempit to mix.Just get to know them at least you get to know a thing or two.If you could be a better friend to them you will pull them out that lousy lifestyle of theirs.So what if that person smokes,drinks or swears?Does it make him a bad person?Important is that he or she has some sense of loyalty and honour in him.It happened to me when my non smoking,non drinking and non swearing friend backstabs me while my smoking,drinking and happy to swear friend is the only one who bail me out during my darkest hours.

Don't judge them by what you see but instead dig deep down into them and know them for what they are.If i have not done so to you please forgive me.

Kebenganganku

Saban hariku melaluinya,
Terasa melalui ombak yang kuat
di tengah lautan,
Hendak ku langkahkan diriku ke dalam
kegelapan,
Tertanyaku pada diriku,
Apa dah terjadi?
Kekosongan di angkasa cumaku
nampakkan.

Kebenganganku seperti kemarahan
Tuan Perapi,
Terkawal hanya dengan kesabaran,
Kesabaranku terbatas ukurannya,
Entah sampai bilaku boleh mengawalnya,
Hanya menunggu saat kapal ini berlabuh
di Melaka.

Mungkinkah jawapan kepadanya dapat
dicari di Melaka,
Jika tiada ku merantau mencari akan
jawapannya,
Walaupun terpaksa berhujan batu
di negeri urang,
Berharapan pada suatu hari kebenganganku
dapat dijadikan abu,
Lalu dilupakan seperti ditiupkan ke langit,
Oleh itu ku mencari jawapan.

Final Semester

It has been two days since the exam started.It's not easy for me as i have only started to study two days before the exam started.I have really gotten myself into deep trouble.I dare not think of my results that i'll obtained.

It's also the final semester now.Life in school is coming to an end for this year.PMR is also on the timetable for the week.Goodness,it has been three years since my Form 3 days.By the end of October it would be a year since i left La Salle.Time really flies!So a simple advice to all of you,spend it well and don't waste it.Take every risk in life don't just swim at the shallow side of the sea instead go deeper even it means losing your breath.The experience is worth a lifetime.

Oh yes for your info i still didn't say anything to her yet.Yes the secret is killing me.I can't think of anything much for the moment as the exam is still on.One day I'll try to say it.

To those who are sitting for their final semester exams.Good luck and do your best.

The Coming Battle

So it begins again.As every soldier begins sharpening their blades for the coming battle.Hordes of enemy will come and we will stand our ground to the end.Or take our life in shame as demanded by the code.Supplies are heavily stocked while rations were carefully given out to everyone.Still morale does not look good as weariness sets in our minds.

The coming battle will take it's toll.Some will be the victor some will be the loser.No one knows.Only fate remains in God's hand as so He can decide.As i await the coming of it.The tune of the Amazing Grace could be heard throughout the encampment from the bagpipes of our fellow White Scars.How sweet and amazing is God's grace.

Tomorrow at dawn,my company and the other five companies will march into the battlefield.The first shot will be from my side.The coming battle has arrived so have we the Raven Guards.

Purge,Cleanse and Kill!

6-10-2008

As it began it was only a seedling,
Growth was a dilemma,
Lost in its surrounding,
Uncertain of the future was I,
It's stormy ahead.

Now a blossomed Sakura in spring,
Awaiting the coming of autumn,
If it has arrived,
Would the weather bare uncertainty?

Standing by the cliff was I where the Sakura
stands blossomed,
Awaiting the arrival of the autumn days,
Thus i await it as the Sakura petals falls
gently to Mother Earth.