Choices

Yet again i'm standing at a crossroad.I did not have a choice all this while.Yet suddenly this option appeared before me only recently.I couldn't move forth nor could i have turn around before this but now i could only see that i could only go forth with whatever decision i make.All these while i thought He would never intend of supporting me.Yet again he did the unexpected or as how i would put it "the most unexpected thought".

Before this happened i would only thought of struggling on my own.I have decided to live my own life let it be whetter  i would be rich or poor as long i did my way and i enjoy doing it.Now a new door opened itself before me.Totally new.Something that i would never had dreamed of.

I could pursue my struggle with a lot of backing from behind provided i survive today to fight on another day.I have a dream but the option given by Him is not of my liking but it is tempting.Anyone would be a fool not to accept it.Would i be a fool to push it away when it is my rightful place that was taken away from me at the beginning .I still yearn to achieve that dream.I want to know if i could achieve it and be proud of the achievement.Still i want to take back my rights from Him.

I don't wish to look back at my past one day only to say that i regretted not to have done it when i had the chance.I want live to say that i have done it and i'm proud that i have done it.Both choices at the moment are extremely tempting but which of it would be better for me.To pursue my dreams or retake my rightful position?

Maybe the choices would reveal it's true nature in due time but i just can't wait until it happens.Actions must be taken and now is the time to take that swift action.Still i can't move forth!We are spoiled by choices and it is up to us to make our dreams or ambitions happen.

I would stressed again we are forever spoiled by choices.This is the nature of choice.If it were to happen let it happen.If it were not to happen then let it be.I just feel that whatever i choose now or sooner or later is up to me to bare the consequences.This is the power of choices.Either ways the result of it is powerful and it influences a person a lot.It may even change your entire life.Decide as you walk down your path and live with the memories of the choices that you have taken along with you.

This is my final note.Let it be.

Cheat

It is alright to cheat anyone for something but the greatest sin is to cheat yourself.

P.T.Quah
7-4-2009

Katsumoto's Sacrifice

Standing by the gate awaiting the legion.Finally they arrived but only to storm into the city without Katsumoto.What deed has he done to earn such dishonour that even the chapter master would not even say?The chapter master just gave a cold reply and went on his way.His heart felt the pain of a thousand needles piercing it but the pain was never there.It was even deeper within him.It is a great shame to him that his honour could only be retained by commiting hara kiri.

For months,Katsumoto sacrificed his strength and time for the greater good of the legion.He is only but a human.A human that commits mistakes and a sinner that sinned before God's mighty eyes.Great things he had forged for the greater good so that the legion may rip the benefits out of it.Still the blasphemous legion looked upon him like a heretic that must purged by the fire of their glorious legion.Why must the chapter masters command him to forge those pillars of support and forsaken him at the time when he needed their guidance the most.This warrior now stands at the crossroads of dillema where either of both choices look equally bleak.

Guidance may not be given in the form that the legion had wished.Still it came in other forms.He didn't mind guiding them from a far for his respects to the chapter captain was of a mutual respect.Yet Katsumoto could just never obey a captain who has no honour.Neither is he in the position to lead the legion as he never had the experience or the commitment in leading them.He had always believe in leading by example.Thus he had never wish to commit any wrongdoings that could have dishonour him.Still he had searched for many ways to share their burden.He has always been a man who could not express himself well with others and has a heart of ice.Conflict eventually brewed from within.

Now Katsumoto realised that almost the entire legion functions like a leech.They just drop off from your body when they are full.The most obvious among them were the chapter masters who held command of the legion.Still there are some who gave hope to Katsumoto.Those of the young initiates whose minds are not yet tainted by the filth of arrogance.He still wish he could teach and guide them more but time has come for him to close this chapter of his life.

It is now time for him to return to the Dark Library to acquire even deeper knowledge to combat a more horrifying being than the battles he had ever fought.It has come to the time for him to be selfish for once for he had sacrificed everything for the legion and only to be repaid by the legion with dust.It hurts but it couldn't be uttered.

Thus this is the end a story.The ending sacrifice of a young chaplain of the doomed legion.

Actions

There is no wrong done in your actions but there is everything right to be done in your actions.

P.T.Quah
20-3-2009

Dedicated to those who are about to take big drastic actions in life.May hope always shine upon the road ahead of you.

Standing Up For The Truth

I can't believe that at a tender age of our teenage years,we are extremely capable of gossiping,back stabbing,or sabotaging for our own gains.We could make very good politicians and infact we could make that one of our career options.Yet with all these extraordinary capabalities we are yet not able to be true to ourselves.We have yet to find a day when we could stand before others and say that "I'm here standing before you willing to put my life on the line for the sake of the truth".

We are still hiding in the shadows unwilling to come out of it.Instead as we are sitting there we are shooting and killing the game far from view.A few days ago during my MUET class,i could see that many could debate fantastically among each other.Each others' arguments could just cut off in an instant.I looked at them wondering when the time comes for them to fight for the truth would they fight as hard as they could argue during their debates.

Everyone in the world could debate.Even a beggar could argue with the police saying that what he stole was justified.Standing up for yourself is never easy.I do say i've seen very few who are willing to fight and bare the outcomes of it.As a saying goes it's better to die with honour then live with none.

I had a slight argument with someone once.That person asked me wheter i'd pay a visit to my teacher and i replied that i'm not going to please anyone.That person said i shouldn't say that but has she forgotten that our teacher did say "i really don't want you guys to come".I just got quite upset with that sentence.I respect my teacher a lot but sometimes not everyone does the right thing.I never put respect and like on the same page.If i were to keep on writing,much misunderstandings will occur.So for now that incident stops here.

What i'm trying to say is that if someone throws a pile of crap at your face just admit it and don't go around saying that you were given a bouquet of flowers.Stand up for the truth!

Hangover

Happy New Years guys!Just got an invitation last night from a good friend of mine to party at his place.Drinks and food were flowing smoothly.All there is for the guest to do is to keep taking in the heat until you are down.I couldn't even remember how many shots of whisky i took but i now it should be a lot.Since i started drinking from 11pm until 5am.First time in my life i took a lot of shots of in a short time.

Don't get me wrong.I'm not trying to show that i'm hell of a great drinker.What i'm trying to say i have not been having fun like this eversince i left my secondary school.At the moment i am suffering from a bloody hangover.Bloody headache since just morning and i'm even not at home while posting this blog.I'm still at my host's house waiting for my bloody headache to subside.

Hope many did have a wonderful time last night because i knew i did.For sure our PDRM had a wonderful bonus for the New Year!

New Job

I've got a job this Monday at Delifrance Jaya Jusco Bukit Tinggi.It's just a job as a kitchen crew.What it's interesting is that i happened to be at the right place and time to get the job.I happened to be at my friends house on Sunday night when they told me about the vacancy in Delifrance.I got to know that the previous kitchen crew quit their job as soon as they receive their pay.I have been looking for a new job lately as the tuition centre that hired me to set up banners couldn't obtain a license from MPK.Thus i was jobless eversince i got back from Siam.

The first day was a real shock for me as it is the first time whereby i happened to cook for the customers.Although i have worked in a restaurant before but i was a service crew.Now i'm the part of the kitchen.Lucky for me i have been observing the chefs at the previous restaurant where i worked.So i had been able to use their skills to practise in the kitchen.I maybe clumsy at the moment but i hope pick up soon.The headache is to remember all the recipe and cooking methods.I can't even remember how many dishes that are stated at the menu.

The interesting part is i only work from a single four hours shift from noon until four in the afternoon.The pay is reasonable.Now i have achieved another dream of mine for being able to work in the kitchen.I just can't be too far away from food it seems!