A Dream

Drip by drip tears fell,

From above to touch my head,

Reminds me of the moments,

Me and you were one.

Like rowing a boat in a storm,

To challenge the waves,

To overcome them,

Like hell it felt.

The sun shine on my face,

Found myself on an island,

Distant yet tranquil,

Sand of white and skies of blue.

If you were ever here,

Like how it was in my dream,

Maybe i dreamt too much,

So they say it was a dream.

Success and Failure

"My greatest success was also my greatest failure and i am despised for being truthful to my feelings and thoughts".-Eddy Sanjana

30-9-2010

Selat Melaka memisahkan kita,
Sang Angin yang membawa khabar,
Seikhlas hati dari Kota Medan,
Sebesar hatiku diberikan.

29-9-2010

Dijanjikan tiada lagi,
Diungkapkan sesudah itu,
Di kota Medan berita sayu,
Di sini menunggu pudar.

Fact

"Sometimes my heart is like facing a storm when i can't comprehend some facts.Facts that are harsh for me to accept but to let it go is simple because you just to live with it for what has been done has been done.Living is to see the beauty of what one can do for you and to themselves.When you see it you feel glad that you have shared your life with them and for a while there is no doubt in you.Thus i have another goal now,that is to humble my inner self."-P.T.Quah

Revelation

After i have returned i have realised that i have to take my life one moment at a time.By doing so i have seen that i could see a much clearer picture of matters that are being addressed before me.Problems,issues and headaches are always around me but i have seem to take it all at the wrong way.I have always assumed that all my problems must be settled all at a single go.Well it seem to have successfully killed me in the process.

In my revelation i have realised that problems should not sum up together to be a big a problem.It is wiser to separate them so your stress level doesn't shoot all the way up until it breaks the mercuric meter.It is like when eating a cake,you can't swallow an entire cake at a single gulp but you have to cut it into simple and smaller pieces so you can chew and digest the cake more efficiently.Well you can eat many multiple small pieces but can't eat an entire cake at one go.

In the midst of solving all your problems the mind has become a very valuable asset in combating your woes.Without you realising it, the mind is always thinking no matter what time is it or whatever you maybe doing.It is the Big Ben which is always working without stopping.Yet the amount work place upon the mind must never be excessive.Like the law of physics dictates a material would bend to the force applied if the force applied is more than what the material can withstand on it's own.This means one should always work their mind based on the situation they are facing.

There is no point worrying too much of the problem of the future or the past when the current issue must be address and solve during that particular period of time.No matter how hard we are thinking about the rest we will never solve anything until the current matter has been resolved.Thus one should face their issues one at a time.

One should always remember to live a happy live.Do not be so stiff in life.Happiness is important and it must be treasured always.Take your steps one at a time if you try to take a Great Leap you might end up like a Red Chairman.

Voices of Chaos

The voices whisper in him,

Surround him like a ghost,

Their cackling even clearer,

A nightmare in autumn.

Digging in his conscious,

Feeding him with nightmares,

Corruption within his soul,

Lost of faith towards the Truth.

Sanity tips the balance,

Pondering the time for walls to fall,

His destiny to fall to Chaos,

Their voices speak clearer in time.

Voices of Chaos,

A battle of sanity against madness,

When will it stop,

May peace be upon his soul.

Board

"It is never hard to board a ship but the hardest is to steer it to the right destination"-P.T.Quah

Question

"Question not the orders given by your superior but question the rationale behind his orders"-P.T.Quah .

Peribahasa Kampung

"Ikan mati kerana umpan namun seorang lelaki mati kerana seorang gadis."-Peribahasa dari Pulau Langkawi.

Di Tanjung Harapan

Menutup hatiku daripada dunia ini,

Mendengar pukulan ombak di situ,

Menenangkan jiwaku yang bergelora,

Mengharapkan suasana sejuk berubah bahagia.

Melihatkan pantulan sinaran matahari,

Bagaikan emas bertaburan di atas laut,

Bila Sang Angin meniup ke mari,

Kulihatkan rambutNya bermain dengan

arus Sang Angin.

Saban hari melihatkan ketegangan dalam

mataNya,

Tetapi hari ini aku melepaskan perasaan itu,

Bila aku memeluk diriNya dekat pada hatiku,

Kelegaan disuarakan daripada suara hatiNya.

Aku datang ke sini dengan harapan,

Berharapan menenangkan jiwa dua insan,

Di sini aku menemui harapanku,

Di sinilah di Tanjung Harapan.

28-1-2010

"If you going to commit a crime you could just do it on the other side of the road."-Anonymous Malaysian.

Forgive or Forget?

Humans are often spoilt by choices and there are times there are certain choices that are hard to make.Thus it is said,choices can only be made based on the circumstances that an individual might be facing.I'd like to approach this topic which i find it to be quite interesting based on a revelation shown from someone close to me.

This topic is an elaborate topic which covers many areas but i would like to approach this topic based on a case where most people are familiar with.The case sounds like this,try imagining yourself in a situation whereby you got angry at someone for something he has done to you.He may hurt you a lot or he may hurt you a little.The whole point is that you are hurt and you are angry.So what would you?Would you forgive or forget?

We can attempt to approach this matter in two ways:

1:Forgive

A person once pointed out to me that you should learn to forgive in the first place.Forgiving makes you lose that grudge you have upon a person.Thus such an action would helps a person to let go of the anger from him.Try to see yourself as a burette filled with many unwanted chemicals within the apparatus.The anger is just like those unwanted chemicals.Now we just need to release all of the chemicals to empty the burette for it to become clean.When we are able to release the knob withholding the chemicals the burette would just become empty and pure again.Therefore to forgive is just like releasing all the unwanted anger away and by doing so we feel peaceful within ourselves.

2:Forget

Well now forgetting is also a component you may need or should need if you are facing such a situation.Forgetting some incident is in-fact good for anyone who is facing a tough time forgiving.Some sins are so hard to be forgiven that we should just forget about it.Someone said this to me before that by forgetting you are running away from your problem.Well it is actually how he forgets that resolves this issue.One should forget such a sin that has been done and move on with his life.Sometimes even when you might have forgiven somemone but if forgiving has not let out the anger what would you do?Well it is time to hit a reset button to erase all this feeling towards that memory.Thus a person who forgets can move on without lingering in past pains.It's just like reformatting your computer.

Well some might argue that forgiving can release your anger some might argue that forgetting is actually the solution.Sometimes forgiving is good but how sure is one that his anger has not dissipated or forgetting is just sometimes reluctance of facing your feelings.As you can see if one does not practice forgiving or forgetting the right way he might just end up in this dilemma.

This issue can get even more complex but i have tried to put it in a very simple way for everyone to understand.Choices are easy to make but we must never make the process of choice making anymore complex because believe me it is in-fact very easy to be done.One should just give yourself only two options "to do it or not to do it".The left or right,up or down?Why need so much drama?

To me forgiving and forgetting are equally good in the process of handling anger.Try to take it as a sort of anger management therapy.If you can't forgive then forget or vice versa because in the end of the day you just want to remove anger from you.Choose wisely which method that may fit your style for i'm sure you want to move on and create a new chapter in life.

Forgive or forget?You decide for yourself.

Now it's pain to see it,but i have to face the fact.My actions became my undoing.The times we spent were memorable.It will leave an imprint.My heart will be hollow once again.I've done the most painful thing in my life.

I believe in faith.Faith doesn't bless us now.Who knows it will one day?Shinning it's light on us like the first day we met.My heart is aching for what i've done.I've broken the heart of two.I have promise not to do it but today i have undone everything i have ever said.

I doubt i will ever rest well because the guilt will always be inside me.