Choice or Circumstance

"Choice not circumstance determines who we are.With circumstances there can only be choices.They coexist but a circumstance must exist before a choice can be made.We can only be who we are based on the choices made during those circumstances."-P T Quah.

10-11-2009

Blissful it seems,

Yet i don't know,

What is awaiting me,

Eager to end it.

Fear of falling,

Uncertainty kills a person,

Rots him from the inside,

Thinking of the abyss.

Shed it away from me,

Faith or test,

Which is the truth,

The left or right.

All the same,

Life is so,

If that is the test,

So let it be.

Three Lords

Three lords upon a throne,

Two ruled the skies,

The other the sea,

Then was the time of harmony.

Rites of blood never be drawn,

Dark thoughts themselves silent,

Until blood spilled from the heavens,

The heavens sundered.

The heavens never again whole,

Torn between believe and deceit,

Trust withers like autumn leaves,

The sea churns like a whirlpool.

Of the skies one large of an oak,

The other slender of a sakura,

Both above the world,

Never have they seen the fires beneath.

The Lord of The Sea towers many beings,

Horrors of the depths he had seen,

Belittled by the skies,

For this desire of their blood is his thirst.

Blessing given none return,

Illuminate brightness in darkness,

Still it is cloudy above the sea,

Storms of often in the west.

The blood of the west will fulfill the desire,

Yet pity he is to the east,

Chasing the ghosts of an unforgiving dream,

Solitude he will never find.

Prophecy of the gods be challenge,

Olympus be consumed by arrogance,

Dethroned and humbled will Olympus be,

Will the elements be masters of their

faith forever.

Three lords of their world,

Wise of old,

Talented in young,

One of sea and two of skies.

These Days

These days i have come to ponder what the youths of our society are up to all the time.As the time goes by i have noticed that the youth are different than those who were brought up in the old days like during our parents time.What do i really meant by them being different?

Well the answers lies very much in what the youths really are these days.They don't seem to be able to take hardship well with them.Many would expect the environment to change in order to suit them but the fact is they should change to suit the environment.Many still lack the fundamentals to survive in the real world even they have established strong fundamentals in scoring exams or winning DOTA.They are traped inside their beautiful world thinking that everything around them is wonderful.When problem arises,that is when they start complaining and do nothing.

Everyday we could see that many Malay youths do nothing but Mat Rempiting all day long,the Indians drinking their life out with liquor and the Chinese who are forever in the cyber cafe playing games.To these people i seriously ponder what are they trying to achieve in this lifetime.I too would like to admit that i'm a biker,drinker and a person who is fond surfing the net.Yet i conduct myself with strict discipline whereby i always know that there is something to be gained from the actions that i have done.Look for the meaning in our life.It is a constant struggle but never let it consume us.Answers can be found around us.

I would always stressed to those close to me especially the young ones that the answers always lie in front of our eyes and it's up to us whetter we wish to see it or otherwise.It's important at all times that we take actions to our hands.Be productive and don't always stand still and wait for our superiors dictate our actions.Never mind the mistakes.We learn a lot from it.

"I will not say that i have failed a thousand times.I will say i have found a thousand ways that will cause failure"-Thomas Edison.

Many of us are scared to move forth and to take the risk all beacuse of the fear of failure.Personally i have many failures in my life.Some experiences were so painful that made even me cried.Yet i would tell myself.How long would i continue to be in this way?I must rise again and succeed what i have failed to achieved today.

"In a day when you don't come across any problems you can be sure that you are traveling in the wrong path".-Swami Vivekananda.

At a young age like these we should try to gain knowledge to our best extend that we can.Every simple thing around us triggers a very deep meaning deep inside us.As our society is progressing forth with advanced technology our youths are not using technology to its best advantage.They spend much of their time blogging about trivial matters,playing games and etc.I wonder why not they use technology to spread knowledge around with friends and family or they could better try to learn something through the use of the internet.I'm also sad to admit that many of our youths have low general knowledge of the world around them.

Other than the matters discussed earlier i would like to stressed very much on our passive nature.I have found that the youths are very passive in nature.This is clearly seen in the nature of Malaysian students.They have lacked the will of inquiry within them.Many would just accept blindly any action or information given to them.In which infact i feel would soon to doom them one day.How would Europe come out of the Dark Ages if it's people didn't inquire and think of the answers.Europe came to a beginning of splendor at the Renaissance Age or also known as the Age of Inquiry.Europe's success was achieved due to the people's will to enquire.To me personally i feel to ask is to enlighten yourself from the darkness around you.

Care less of what repercussions that you might face when you ask questions instead think more of the benefits in which the answer may provide.Many youths are always assuming that they will be embarrassed for asking questions.In fact they should always question if they do not understand or feel that something is wrong.They should stand firm on their own and care less what others would think.For it is the truth they are seeking.

"Never compare yourself to anyone in this world.If you do,you are insulting yourself"-Alen Strike.

To conclude this chapter i would wish to point out again that our youths have a lot to improve on.It is essential to have themselves improved to be a better lot.What that i have expressed earlier are just some of my ideas and opinions and i know that there are many who are out there who are practicing these ideals for the betterment of their lives in which they have found through the hardship that have gone through in their lives.

"I lay upon a hope in my heart that these days will soon to be those days where we will soon become better than yesterday."-P T Quah.

Choices

Yet again i'm standing at a crossroad.I did not have a choice all this while.Yet suddenly this option appeared before me only recently.I couldn't move forth nor could i have turn around before this but now i could only see that i could only go forth with whatever decision i make.All these while i thought He would never intend of supporting me.Yet again he did the unexpected or as how i would put it "the most unexpected thought".

Before this happened i would only thought of struggling on my own.I have decided to live my own life let it be whetter  i would be rich or poor as long i did my way and i enjoy doing it.Now a new door opened itself before me.Totally new.Something that i would never had dreamed of.

I could pursue my struggle with a lot of backing from behind provided i survive today to fight on another day.I have a dream but the option given by Him is not of my liking but it is tempting.Anyone would be a fool not to accept it.Would i be a fool to push it away when it is my rightful place that was taken away from me at the beginning .I still yearn to achieve that dream.I want to know if i could achieve it and be proud of the achievement.Still i want to take back my rights from Him.

I don't wish to look back at my past one day only to say that i regretted not to have done it when i had the chance.I want live to say that i have done it and i'm proud that i have done it.Both choices at the moment are extremely tempting but which of it would be better for me.To pursue my dreams or retake my rightful position?

Maybe the choices would reveal it's true nature in due time but i just can't wait until it happens.Actions must be taken and now is the time to take that swift action.Still i can't move forth!We are spoiled by choices and it is up to us to make our dreams or ambitions happen.

I would stressed again we are forever spoiled by choices.This is the nature of choice.If it were to happen let it happen.If it were not to happen then let it be.I just feel that whatever i choose now or sooner or later is up to me to bare the consequences.This is the power of choices.Either ways the result of it is powerful and it influences a person a lot.It may even change your entire life.Decide as you walk down your path and live with the memories of the choices that you have taken along with you.

This is my final note.Let it be.

Cheat

It is alright to cheat anyone for something but the greatest sin is to cheat yourself.

P.T.Quah
7-4-2009

Katsumoto's Sacrifice

Standing by the gate awaiting the legion.Finally they arrived but only to storm into the city without Katsumoto.What deed has he done to earn such dishonour that even the chapter master would not even say?The chapter master just gave a cold reply and went on his way.His heart felt the pain of a thousand needles piercing it but the pain was never there.It was even deeper within him.It is a great shame to him that his honour could only be retained by commiting hara kiri.

For months,Katsumoto sacrificed his strength and time for the greater good of the legion.He is only but a human.A human that commits mistakes and a sinner that sinned before God's mighty eyes.Great things he had forged for the greater good so that the legion may rip the benefits out of it.Still the blasphemous legion looked upon him like a heretic that must purged by the fire of their glorious legion.Why must the chapter masters command him to forge those pillars of support and forsaken him at the time when he needed their guidance the most.This warrior now stands at the crossroads of dillema where either of both choices look equally bleak.

Guidance may not be given in the form that the legion had wished.Still it came in other forms.He didn't mind guiding them from a far for his respects to the chapter captain was of a mutual respect.Yet Katsumoto could just never obey a captain who has no honour.Neither is he in the position to lead the legion as he never had the experience or the commitment in leading them.He had always believe in leading by example.Thus he had never wish to commit any wrongdoings that could have dishonour him.Still he had searched for many ways to share their burden.He has always been a man who could not express himself well with others and has a heart of ice.Conflict eventually brewed from within.

Now Katsumoto realised that almost the entire legion functions like a leech.They just drop off from your body when they are full.The most obvious among them were the chapter masters who held command of the legion.Still there are some who gave hope to Katsumoto.Those of the young initiates whose minds are not yet tainted by the filth of arrogance.He still wish he could teach and guide them more but time has come for him to close this chapter of his life.

It is now time for him to return to the Dark Library to acquire even deeper knowledge to combat a more horrifying being than the battles he had ever fought.It has come to the time for him to be selfish for once for he had sacrificed everything for the legion and only to be repaid by the legion with dust.It hurts but it couldn't be uttered.

Thus this is the end a story.The ending sacrifice of a young chaplain of the doomed legion.

Actions

There is no wrong done in your actions but there is everything right to be done in your actions.

P.T.Quah
20-3-2009

Dedicated to those who are about to take big drastic actions in life.May hope always shine upon the road ahead of you.

Standing Up For The Truth

I can't believe that at a tender age of our teenage years,we are extremely capable of gossiping,back stabbing,or sabotaging for our own gains.We could make very good politicians and infact we could make that one of our career options.Yet with all these extraordinary capabalities we are yet not able to be true to ourselves.We have yet to find a day when we could stand before others and say that "I'm here standing before you willing to put my life on the line for the sake of the truth".

We are still hiding in the shadows unwilling to come out of it.Instead as we are sitting there we are shooting and killing the game far from view.A few days ago during my MUET class,i could see that many could debate fantastically among each other.Each others' arguments could just cut off in an instant.I looked at them wondering when the time comes for them to fight for the truth would they fight as hard as they could argue during their debates.

Everyone in the world could debate.Even a beggar could argue with the police saying that what he stole was justified.Standing up for yourself is never easy.I do say i've seen very few who are willing to fight and bare the outcomes of it.As a saying goes it's better to die with honour then live with none.

I had a slight argument with someone once.That person asked me wheter i'd pay a visit to my teacher and i replied that i'm not going to please anyone.That person said i shouldn't say that but has she forgotten that our teacher did say "i really don't want you guys to come".I just got quite upset with that sentence.I respect my teacher a lot but sometimes not everyone does the right thing.I never put respect and like on the same page.If i were to keep on writing,much misunderstandings will occur.So for now that incident stops here.

What i'm trying to say is that if someone throws a pile of crap at your face just admit it and don't go around saying that you were given a bouquet of flowers.Stand up for the truth!